Thinking Out Loud

Well, I guess I missed the chance to write a touching Mother's Day tribute on Mother's Day, huh? Hate to be so clichè, but "better late than never". Usually, anyway. But then to write a tribute ON Mom's Day would have been clichè as well. Hmm.....sorry, just thinking out loud.

So I have been a Mom for almost 4 years now. It has been the quickest four years of my life...other than college. College went by fast, too. But in college I wasn't responsible for another person, especially a tiny one. There is SO MUCH that I have forgotten about the first few months of motherhood. I get a little melancholy when i see tiny little onesies: Was my baby ever really that small? I barely remember what holding her felt like; now she's stands as high as my waist, and I have to grunt to lift her. And now I have to negotiate how many books to read before bedtime. And so much of my vocabulary starts with the letter P--Poo, Pee, Potty, Please all usually is crammed into the same sentence. And you never realize how many types of vegetables are green until you try to make your little one eat any of them. When she was a baby, any mush would do. Before I had a child I used to roll my eyes at toddlers on "leashes" until I had to travel alone several times with my toddler cross country and it was the only way I could guarantee she wouldn't get separated from me in the swarm of holiday travelers at the airport.

I miss how tiny and small she was, that she could fit in the crook of my arm: It went by so fast, that I almost long for it all over again. I'm pretty sure that's how God makes sure we continue to make more babies, is that we forget all the things that happen in the early months. There are so many things that go by in a blur. And I don't think I've taken enough photos and video. And my baby scrapbook still only has 3 newborn photos in it; maybe I should be catching up on my scrapbooking instead of painting chairs. Or blogging. : ) .... Just thinking out loud.